Authoritarian Fall-Back

I haven’t slept in 4 days. Or maybe it’s 5 days.  I can’t remember anymore and it’s unimportant.  The point is that I’m bone tired and I’ve fallen into the patterns that I learned as a child.   The patterns I’m in do not foster connection with my family. They are authoritarian rather than authoritative…

Wordless Wednesday: Twin Dance Party

WordPress mobile app ate my post for today. So a wordless post it is! Post for NaBloPoMo (Since I’m writing most of these late at night, in bed, while tandem nursing twins, I’m choosing to concentrate on writing rather than proof-reading or editing. Please forgive the extra typos and non-nonsensical grammar. Thank you.)

On Not Staying Silent

I’m taking a little break from social media to refill my bucket. So, this is a quick (unedited) post about why. I have seriously considered quitting blogging 3 times. The first was when the blog wrote under a pseudonym for years changed direction and we decided to part ways. The second was when I had…

Touched Down

*There is a trigger warning on this post for child abuse, trauma, and suicide ideation. Please be gentle with yourself before deciding to read on. I stopped writing. But before that, I stopped a lot of other things. I stopped going to acupuncture then chiropractic then massage then yoga then meditation. I stopped feeling my…

Lyings and Tigers and Bares

I’m walking this path today with my eyes looking up. I’m entranced by the cloud shapes. I reach my hands up and find that I’m able to collect and shape them. Delicately I begin to form shapes. I’m teasing out meanings and learning as I go. I am not certain what they will be yet.…

The Problem of Truth

This NaBloPoMo has been an experiment for me to find my boundaries. In this spirit, I offer this unedited, stream of consciousness as I puzzle over something. I invite you to join me in speaking your truth, today. Update: I chickened out and wasn’t going to post this, but I’m running out of time to…

Dental Tools

*There is a trigger warning on this post for child abuse and survivor’s guilt* You. It’s You and Me. I can see you in pain. Take me. Make me yours. Make me real again. I know you hurt I can help you. We can do this together. Yes, that’s right Just like that. Open wide…