This is my Semicentennial post.
I feel like this is a good point to reflect on what I have accomplished over the span of 50 posts. I set out with the intention to express what was most true in me. I wasn’t entirely certain where it would lead. I just knew I needed to write again. For myself this time.
I’ve been letting everything slide this month. I feel the need to return to center and clean out all the mud that slicked my way down to the base of this mountain. My 5oth post is a great time to do this. It’s been a month of challenges, so I get why I’ve let it all go. I’m not beating myself up about it, but my body and mind are screaming, “enough already.”
I went back and read my first post. It was like looking at a different person. I have changed because I’ve been using my voice-creating and destroying like Kali. I like the direction my blog is taking for the most part. I like how organic it is and that I’m not limiting myself. I’ve been surprised at how much has centered on PPD and how little has been about homeschooling and green living. I’d like to bring more of a balance to the blog so that it isn’t dominated by PPD. I would also like to bring in more parenting experiences. I’ve got dozens of posts partially written on these. I just need to discipline myself a bit better to finish them.
I also want to reconnect with Yoga. My practice has fallen off a bit since I was solo-parenting and some other personal issues came up this month. I really center myself on my mat and use it in life off the mat. So, I think bringing that back around will help me as I go forward.
So, going forward these are the things I would like to cultivate:
- Yoga practice and reflection
- More confidence in my writing
- Writing more consistently
- Reading more consistently
- More routine and goal setting
And these are the things I would like to eschew:
- Spending an entire weekend day catching up on my computer
- Perfectionism or absolutism
- Sticking hard and fast to any of this if it doesn’t serve me
Community: I’ll continue reading and commenting promiscuously. I adore comments and I think it really helps writers if they know someone is actually involved with their words and not just another blip on the stats. Keep up with Twitter and Facebook, with unique content there and sharing as I’ve been doing.
Yoga practice for me isn’t just postures. It’s also meditation, spiritual connection, life principles, and well, Yoga is the whole big-shabang. It’s It. I’ll just make it apriori again and see what unfolds.
Confidence and consistency. I have this idea that my words aren’t enough. I’d love to be able to write heavily researched, witty and entertaining posts every day. Yah, well, that ain’t gonna happen unless I give up everything else in my life. Writing like what I’m doing in this post just seems trite, but I enjoy so many other blogs that are written off the cuff, why not. And, realistically, I have to write whenever I can. Most of the time, that’s late at night on my cell phone or notebook. That means tons of perpetually unfinished posts or acceptance of something new.
Writing and Reading more consistently to me means scheduling the time and doing it even when I hate schedules. I watch very little television, but I may give that up in order to meet this need. I’ll spend a little time figuring out how much and when. This includes setting goals and finding routine. I would love to post every day, but I just don’t think I can do that. I have plenty of ideas to write. I just can’t find the time to do it. I have a goal of written posts every Monday and Friday, a Wordless Wednesday and a Sunday Surf. So far, I’ve been hit or miss on meeting this. But, I’d like to continue to aim for this goal. I’m trying to schedule posts ahead of time as much as possible. Whenever I have several weeks scheduled out, then I can fill in between days with something if I’m driven by a passion. I plan to do this every two weeks as monthly hasn’t been working for me.
All of these plans should eliminate my all-day computer time. I feel like I’m missing out with my family when this happens and I’m just not going to do it anymore. I’m sure my husband will be pleased to have me co-parenting consistently on the weekends.
As with any large, open-ended project of this nature, it will wax and wane. I will hold myself accountable for when I slide off my path, but only so long as I keep it fun. And it has been fun.
Most of all, I have loved this exploration. I expected to find out new things about myself. What I did not expect to find was community. That has been the true treasure of this journey. And I would like acknowledge a few of the bloggers who have been giving back to me. I promise if you don’t see yourself here right now, I will be sure to acknowledge you on my blog, facebook, and twitter.
- Becoming Crunchy
- CodeName: Mama
- Dagmar’s Momsense
- Farewell, Stranger
- Imperfect Happiness
- Kelly Hogaboom
- Lazy Kate
- One Rich Mother
- Raising My Boychick
- Sausage Mama and the Sausagettes
- Strocel and Crafting My Life
Thank you for your words.Thank you for reading. I am honored and grateful for each and every person who has taken time to be here.
The light within me sees the light within thee